Story - On the Spot #2

As I sit on the computer I wonder what silence is.  Is the absence of sound or is it the meaning of new life. I wonder this topic so very much.  How can silence make a change in how I think so will it bring upon new thoughts.  I hope to pass this time so very quickly and make a new thing out of this silence.  I am not sure what brought me to this silence. Was it the end of life or the passing of time?  I pray for just the passing of time but I have a feeling that it is the end of life.  My life ended so fast that I don't even remember the end of it.  I will sit in this in between till I find what I need to do next.  There is no life after death so far and I am unsure of a future here.  I am lost in this place.  There is nowhere for me to go and nothing for me to do.  I walk amongst my old friends but no one notices me here.  I am just gone from their lives like I was never there.  Why doesn't anyone miss me and why doesn't anyone look for me?  Have I never been alive?  Was I one with the living at one time?  I miss how I was once loved and cared for and now no one cares.  I am a ghost left to walk on this world.  A ghost that has no point left in its life.  I hope to pass the time away and make myself something.  There is nothing for a ghost to do but wonder how life can continue on this way.  I can only be lost when everyone forgets who I am.

Poem - Walls

Towering over me, staring down on me
Trying to stand up taller
I just keep falling down

I lay here all alone
A wall forming all around
No one to lend me a single hand

There is no way out of here
My head is spinning with the same thoughts
I keep running in the same circles

I am all alone at the bottom
Walls closing in to cut off air
Smaller and smaller I feel

There is nothing but the walls
Looking far off is the sky
To far too see when I can’t touch it

Farther and farther the sky goes
I am still all alone on the ground
No where to run, no where to hide

I lay here and wait
Waiting for the time to come
Waiting for these walls to fall

Comments

I have written more things down but either lost them or am to lazy to post them. If you haven't had a chance please try and read my horror story and tell me what you think.  I am still working on the beginning of the story and I think I am going to add an ending from yet again another person's point of view.  Keep reading.